I never understood why people would write blog entries about why they weren't writing. It's a pointless waste to me, because this is an outlet for ideas and writing and bouncing things, for hooray and boo and sadface and lookatme gaaaahhhhh. There's really no reason to post a fucking stupid entry like this, but lately, I've found myself wanting just to write little updates because I feel like I owe it to people, when I just have absolutely nothing to say.
But it's really not about me, when I say "Sorry for not paying too much attention, I've been busy." It's about the weighty guilt I feel for slacking on everyone else's ideas and writing and bouncing things. I get it now. It's for you guys, not for me.
And that's a highly self-centered thing, believing that people out there might care enough to read a mindless update. I feel self-centered even typing this, but it's become apparent that my life actually does matter, at least a little, to some people. I'm not used to that. No, I shouldn't say that, because that insinuates my friends and family don't care. How about this: I never realized that I would care if people on the internet might care. Of course, chances are, either way, this is just me being dumb. I am often quite dumb.
So yes. Here is a list of updates and minor things:
1. The doctor. Yeah, it was basically nothing. I have elevated enzymes in my liver. Not a worrisome level. Shit's fine. I can't drink until they know what it actually is, but I haven't been drinking for about a month anyway, so whatever. It could be due to the fact that I've been taking Tylenol every day. Or I could have hepatitis. (No, I don't have fucking hepatitis.)
2. Work is hectic right now, with ten-to-twelve hour days that are full of nothing but work, not ten-to-twelve hour days that lengthen into such because I wrote a blog during "lunch." School starts soon, which means everyone wants money, there's all this post-event funding clean up business. Fucking bullshit.
3. It is hottern'balls and humid and I want it to be fall all fuckingready. I'm way too lazy in the summer.
4. MoLinder bought me a sweet Alexander Hamilton portrait to make up for the fact that she let Muffy destroy my Watchmen cup. It is amazing, and I can't figure out how to hang it up.
5. Reading is good.